Thursday, April 30, 2009

All Shook Up

I'm all shook up! No, I'm not singing an Elvis song.

J received some news this week that really shook me to the core. My heart is aching for her as she walks down this newest path that is being put before her. She shared with me yesterday and it really hit me hard. First my heart was breaking for her and her husband as they weigh options, make plans and figure out how to deal with this news.

Next Satan came at me hard, toying with me that this "thing" that my body has to host for another 3 weeks is growing out of control as I wait and wait. I woke up yesterday with shooting pains and experienced them on and off all day. So of course ole Beelzabub takes the very real and twists them into lies to torture me. And I was too tired to put up a good fight. I let him taunt me.

That was yesterday.

Today I'm fightin' mad! Hebrews 4: 14-16 says (CEV) 14We have a great high priest, who has gone into heaven, and he is Jesus the son of God. That is why we must hold on to what we have said about him. 15Jesus understands every weakness of ours, because he was tempted in every way that we are. But he did not sin! 16So whenever we are in need, we should come bravely before the throne of our merciful God. There we will be treated with undeserved kindness, and we will find help.

In Mark 4:40 (CEV) Jesus asked this simple question. "Why were you afraid? Don't you have any faith?" I admit, I had none yesterday. Hebrews 11:1 says Faith makes us sure of what we hope for and gives us proof of what we cannot see. And if we back up to chapter 10, the writer encourages me by saying "35Keep on being brave! It will bring you great rewards. 36Learn to be patient, so that you will please God and be given what he has promised." And the promises of God are many!

God, forgive me for doubting that You are in control, and as my father I should know You want what is best for me. Your mercies are new every morning. I know that God is always at work for the good of everyone who loves him. (Rom 8:28) Help me Father to daily put on the armor that You give me, so I can defend myself against the devils tricks. I am not fighting against humans, I am fighting against the forces and powers in the spiritual realm. Help me learn to run to You first, to have faith in Your word, so that it becomes my sheild against the flaming arrows of the evil one. I want to be standing firm when this battle is over. (Eph 6)

Run and hide Satan, I'm doin' the shakin' now!


  1. Mindy,

    I continue to pray for you daily! Loved this blog entry...a good reminder for everyone-no matter what trial they may be going through at the time!

    Love you,

  2. You go girl!!! Thanks for this post...this is an excellent reminder for me! Keep on fighting! Love you--Julie

  3. If you stop fighting you stop living....don't ever, ever do that. Love how you are putting it all in perspective. God knows the end from the beginning and He is large and in charge!!!
    Love you...

  4. :) You make him run and hide, that rascal!

  5. Hi Mindy

    My prayers will certainly contain your name. As I read through the words of your email my heart wept within me. God our God is a wonderful God. He knows us by name, He sees every tear that falls and He hears us when we call. I will call on Him often about you. We send our love and look forward to hearing from you.
    Harold, Jan, and Porsche

  6. Mindy,
    I think Linda and I have gone through, and continue to go through, every emotion you and Dave are feeling. I especially hate it when pain comes into play. You both are in our prayers.
    Dan and Linda

  7. Mindy, Bob and I are praying for you, and the prayer community at College First Church of God in Findlay, OH keeps you in prayer. May you recognize the Lord's presence with you today, and stand trusting Him with your armor on (Ephesians 6). Blessings, Bob and Bonnie Nietz

  8. Mrs. Howell,

    I am a friend of Jenny's at church and I am praying for you and your family. I just wanted to say it's amazing to read what you wrote. I believe in God and I know he's all powerful but I personally would be struggling with knowing that if I were going through what you are going through. However, when things are tough, I try to keep in mind
    Phil 4:13 and that God won't put us through anything we can't handle. So let me just say, you are a STRONG woman who God knows can be put through alot!! God bless you :)