Friday, November 2, 2012

Life goes on....but not like before.

Wow, I cannot believe how long it has been since I last posted an update.  Life has pretty much settled back into a routine of sorts. Life does go on for a breast cancer survivor. However it's not the same as before.  Some things are sweeter, others are not.  I am more sensitive to the blessings in my life,  my family, my friends, and others who are suffering. And I have less patience with those who are ungrateful and ignore their abundant blessings, instead focusing on minor inconveniences.

Physically, I am dealing with the side affects of the chemo drugs I will continue to be on for the next three years.  I am (thankfully) off of Tamoxifen and as of this past February, started taking Arimidex. The blessings to this new drug is I rarely have severe cramping now. My leg cramps were so intense on Tamoxifen that I was often in tears, trying to walk off what wouldn't release for many, many minutes. Seemed like hours some times. I was cramping in my hands, my ribs, my glutes, and always, always from the knees down. Have you ever cramped on the outside of your knee?? There isn't much you can do to release that area. I am very thankful to be off that drug! 

This new drug has it's own side affects. They aren't fun either, but I have to say, it is the lesser of the two evils.  This drug makes me feel like an 80 year old woman. My joints hurt, my knees swell and my hands are very stiff. Arimidex depletes my bones of calcium, so the risk of fractures and breakage is very real. And I feel constantly fatigued, yet  if I get woken up in the middle of the night (and that happens frequently) I cannot go back to sleep for a couple of hours. It is very frustrating.  I don't recover from exercise quickly either. I gardened last week and for three days I ached EVERYWHERE!  I am not exaggerating. I could barely stand up straight and hobbled and shuffled like.... yep, an 80 year old woman.  I am way too young to feel this old.

Then there is the weight. Within less than two weeks of starting this new drug, I put on 8 pounds! I gained weight right away with Tamoxifen too, but managed to get it under control and lose the weight.  With Arimidex, I've yet to lose all that I've gained.  I've lost about half of it and am managing to not gain anymore, but that other 4 pounds just dosen't seem to be coming off.

There are other side affects that I won't go into here, but for those of you who have gone through menopause, I have those issues too. There was nothing gradual happening in that area. Chemo threw me under that menopause bus and the chemo drugs since then have stomped on me to make sure I stay there. I talk to my doctor about issues that I never dreamed of discussing with anyone.

In the days since I have "quieted down" with all my treatments, I have started studying nutrition and the effects the foods we eat have on our body. I am amazed at what I am finding. One of the biggest "aha" moments came when I watched the DVD "Forks Over Knives".  This DVD is not for casual health nut. The information presented is both scientific and clinical studied and will challenge anyone on their idea of eating healthy.  I am not a 100 % convert, but I cannot ignore the studies presented either. In a nutshell, it proves that cancer is directly related to the American diet, and other countries diets that are similar to ours.The doctors and scientist in the DVD endorse eating a whole plant based diet and steering clear of animal based anything. If you're curious, check it out. It definitely has some information in it that is hard to ignore.

Life has changed for me. Not all of it good, but so much of it is. I found the courage to quit my corporate job and have started my own businesses.  Check out my website and give me some honest feedback on it. I'm new at this entrepreneur business, so I welcome your suggestions.  I am so loving being challenged. It's up to me to make it happen, set my schedule, give myself a raise and to do what I love instead of working for someone else and finding it hard just to get  up every morning.  Be sure to visit my website, then come back here and let me know what you think.

Thanks for sticking around when I vacated over the entire summer! I have been trying to get into a new normal, but have realized there is no such thing as normal when you own two businesses and are exploring all avenues of interest.  I'll give you more insight on that in some other posts.  For now, click on my link to check out my website, Make My Day.  I'm on Facebook too as Make My Day, LLC. Like my page to see what I'm up to there.  Talk to you soon.  I'll be writing again, more often.


  1. Good to hear from you! Sorry about all these side affects. I'm with you on the menopause thing - mine was surgically induced back in 2000 when I was 27 and I had a hysterectomy due to endometriosis. Not fun. You are a fighter. Hang in there. Will check out your new business! :)

    1. Hi Sarah! I didn't know, I am so sorry. Thanks for sticking with me. Prayers to you and yours!

  2. Nice post. I still say you need to pursue a writing career. :) Sharon